Hwee!

Hello people!

2010-05-26T09:07:00.000-07:00

www.hraz.tumblr.com. (:

:D

2010-05-22T07:51:00.000-07:00

Seconds away.

2010-05-22T04:14:00.000-07:00

That the change is good,

2010-05-21T08:05:00.000-07:00

I'm not going to scold you anything,
because I respected you for who you are to me.
But, wow, look who is the one who is more childish here?
Lemme see~

Someone who suddenly never talk to you, cause you are oh-so-childish?
Or
Someone you think is childish?

Go reflect on yourself okay, before saying it.
You said that you could live without friends,
it's just another part of your lies, isn't it?
Let me guess, you've been a hypocrite for the past three years?
Wow man, you're sucha a rocker.
I'm so going to salute you right now -.-

Foad.

Well sentence me to another life.

2010-05-15T09:33:00.001-07:00

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Went out with mr annoying to watch this show today.

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Seriously, this is a great show. (:

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I need to shit, like now please.

Until you bring here your devotion.

Cause without you, my heart is so cold.

2010-05-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

SUUUUUUUUUUP.

I know I'm a complete retard to blog again.
But I need to do some kind of checklist.
Because, I need to start my engine again and mug till o's.
I think O's is my new best friend now.
Inner hwee: ewwwwwwww. HAHA.

Hwee's checklist!
[X] Start to mug from next week
[X] Improve English.
[X] Start Additional Mathematics tuition.
[X] Do all my homework/tuition work finish.
[X] Not to miss any lessons during the holidays.
[X] One/Two days break during holidays.
[X] Work on Elementary Mathematics.
[X] Stay away from the stupid computer.
.......

Okay, I think I'm done. Gahhhh.
Major stress/frustrations/irritations is coming back.

And, I swear I'm going cold feet on monday.
Maybe my blood will turn blue or something. LOL.
Yeah, I've got a feeling I will cry this time again.

This is a total f.v.u.k.s.h.i.t. <:

Someone please remember to bring tissues,
I think I'm going to need it.

That's what you get when you let your heart win.

And darling, it's still you and me.

2010-05-13T23:18:00.000-07:00

Fight, fight, fight!

2010-05-13T22:40:00.001-07:00

WHATZUP!

Went to bedok reservoir today.
The place is freaking hot/humid/wet/irritating!
I don't like, and I'm so not running! Bleah.
I think I almost fainted, but who cares. :b
Anyway, I went with hong today.
Fun, fun, fun! ♥
Thanks baby sista, you rock my life. (:

For now, let the pictures do the talking kay.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA ♥

Shuyi: Hey, I read your blog okay, I'm sorry about your grandma alright, and jiayou! ♥
Fay: I need to talk to you soon kay. (:
LLTT: ♥
Hong: Hahaha! Hey sista!
Everyone else: Muah!

P.S. Go check out this website http://vigilantcitizen.com/. (:

Credits: Fay!

I am close behind,

2010-05-13T01:15:00.000-07:00

Like what I've said, I'm yours to collide.

Pulling me back, pulling me in.

2010-05-13T00:37:00.000-07:00

Dear blogger, it's been since I blog.
Well actually frankly speaking, I blog one day ago.
But well, this year is going to fly fast.
So I wanna blog this out. (:

I missed the trainings, hugs and goodbyes, sakura lunch and dinner after trainings,
KFC lunch, the sweats we all produced, the encouragement, the conflicts, the 'together-ness',
frisbee with coach wee, frisbee with soccer peeps, marina barage, pictures and laughters,
blood, cuts, bandage, first aid kits, netballs, nets, screaming like idiots (!!!), running around the school, coach yani (!), coach yilun, coach wee, seniors, going to wildwildwet, long bus ride, tears.

Up next was Jialin's 16th birthday!
Orchard we went, and dang, I think all the mics are going to spoil.
And to add on, being extremely clumsy, sigh, I broke something,
just when i entered the room for 5 minutes. Nize one hwee.
Anyway, it's cool there lah. I hope she enjoyed her birthday kay.
Ahem, my birthday is next~ :b

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P.S. The chocolate cake was sooooooo good. (Y)
Look at the cake, hahaha, actually, too small. -.-

And I'm halfway out the door~
Alright, back to the topic. *Slap myself*

Now, here I am, after the exams.
I think I'm too bored until I'm cam-whoring.
I'm so going to watch The last song.
This time I swear I will, I already missed out my Dear john.

I'm not going to miss this too. :b

Dear blogger, there's so much to talk about.
But for now, just rock onz.

if you only knew.

2010-05-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

I don't get why I feel so angry everytime I see that.
It gets annoying. It gets frustrating.
Frankly speaking, you're really pissing me off now.
I hope I never will see you again.
I bet I will blow my top off. -.-

Alright, I will be giving a proper post today.
Since I seriously hate the exams now.
Two more freaking days and soon o's.
Time is going to fly fast this year.
Somehow, I would love to get my ass out of the school.
Because some people in the school are really whores and dickheads.
Thinking back, Why give them up for real people you care for?

Anyway, I'm going to stop caring so much,
and focus on people worth caring for.
I bet many would agree on me. No one's perfect.

Last few months was okay.
Well, about the post about that moron, he could just rot and die.
Good luck to him anyway. He isn't worth it. HAHA.
What I wanted to say was, someone disappointed me even more.
HE of all people would never read this post.
But I'm still posting it anyway.
HE fucking hell disappointed me.
LAUGH LAH LAUGH SOMEMORE.
Good luck in being a hypocrite anyway.
I finally know your true colours.
You still try to push the blame on others.
Purlease okay, after all that I fucking help you.

This is the way you're treating me?!

It's okay manz. I'll not cry over such things again.
Because this people deserve to get their asses kicked.

Stalkers.

2010-05-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

I think there's something wrong with my eyes.

I think my stalkers are trying to kill me. (Y)

Ice creamz.

2010-04-23T09:57:00.001-07:00

I could really use a wish right now.

2010-04-23T09:52:00.001-07:00

My throat hurts badly,
I think it's due to I'm eating too much curry mee.
And the eating of belgium chocolate ice-creamz now.
I'm not feeling alright anyway.
Frankly speaking, whatever kay.
Anyway, you need him more than you need me.
So fuck it. Whatever.
Go eat your own dick and choke to death.

Come on ice-cream, make me feel looooooooooooooooooved.

make a wish on airplane,

2010-04-17T09:01:00.001-07:00

I wanna get out of Ahmad Ibrahim now.
I'm sick and tired of the people in it.
Everyone is changing, not for the better anyway.
I can't wait to move on and leave. Bye.

it's going to be more than I can take,

2010-04-16T01:32:00.001-07:00

I told you happy monsters are good. (:

Anyway, what's up people? :D
Been away from the computer lately.
So I'm sorry for not blogging that often.
Anyway, I saw Fay today (!!!) Finally.
I didn't see her for nearly two weeks?
Great, stupid illness. Chuckyou.

Continuing on, the chemistry class was always the worst.
The class is irritating me, tremendously.
Everywhere I hear, it's all voices.
Not soft you know! It's LOUD!
Come on, I wanna study too you know. -.-

Always, life's been up and down. Whatever man~
But knowing that my friends are there, it's good enough. ^^

Those who matter don't mind, those who mind don't matter.

The only exception.

2010-04-09T06:33:00.001-07:00

Happy monsters! (Y)

2010-04-09T04:46:00.000-07:00

http://happymonsters.tumblr.com (:

Live like you're dying.

2010-04-09T00:36:00.000-07:00

There's so many reasons why I love this video. ^^

I never meant to break, but I got him where I want him now.

Get up.

2010-04-05T23:52:00.000-07:00

I want to get well and rock balls.
I want to drink bubble tea and eat fried food.
I want to start mugging.

I went to see the doctor yesterday about my breathing.
Guess what the doctor said.
You are toooooooooo stressed, you need to chill out. o.o

WHAT.

THE.

HELL.

Breathe slow.

2010-04-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

Dang, give me more oxygen.
I'm having difficulties breathing.
I need more oxygen.
Whatever stupid virus that entered my body. Chuckyou!

oh yeah! I wanna go other countries with my friends this year! (Y)

Hehehe. Okay enough hwee. -.-

2010-04-02T04:38:00.000-07:00

Say hello to Tom! ;)

2010-04-02T04:37:00.000-07:00

Hehehehe. Sorry.

Say hello to Jerry! ;)

2010-04-02T04:34:00.001-07:00

Firstly I have to say. I'm not a retard! :D
Ain't he cute? Come on~ Agree with me~

Happy.

2010-04-02T04:31:00.000-07:00

A new day. I hope things are okay. (:
I wished I could still be able to perceive that meaning.

Welcome to my life.

2010-04-01T07:44:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I wished I could just blocked out anything and anyone.
It would had made my life so much easier that way.
However, I can't. I care just a little too much.
Apparently, most people don't care a fuck about the people they love.

I realised that in this world, no one could be fully trusted.
When they break your trust, you could no longer trust them anymore.
I, being extremely dumb to this situation, would trust.
And getting my feelings cheated, again.
I want my carefree life!

Stupid complicated life. Argh.
Great, now I have no idea what I'm blogging about.
Fay, some help please? :D

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Things to be done.
1. Control my temper, don't let that moron affect me.
2. Be a good friend and don't let them be upset.
3. Stop fucking hell crying, crying doesn't help.
4. Get well soon, because being sick equals to unable to study.
5. Be a good girlfriend and stand by him.
6. Stop talking bad about people. Ignore them.
7. Stop making people you love worried.

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Fay: There you go! My 'longest' post. HAHA.
Yanhong: I didn't know he was upset. I guessed I suck don't I? Don't worry kay, Hwee's strong. And I will smile bigbig for you to see! :D Hahaha! As for that moron, Hahaha! Who cares a ____ about him? :) He's a moron, and I agree to what you say.
Xueting, Rina and Jialin: Sorry. Love you guys.
Zulfadhli: I'm sorry. And stay strong. (:

And guess what!
That moron and I are playing the I-stare-at-you, you-stare-at-me game.
This is going to be so much fun, I tell you. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Hwee's out. (:

A twist to my story.

2010-03-30T03:48:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary,

I'm not happy today.
I lost my specs and look for it like a dumb idiot.
Headed home and he called.
Chat for a while until I realised that a small dickless asshole,
is talking behind my back today.
He compared me with another friend and ask everyone,
who that particular person would choose.
And guess what! He was comparing our boobs.
So nice of him right! Yeah, let me continue.
Yeah, that poor little dickless asshole.
He don't know what's the meaning of people-hates-you.
He don't even know that everyone is laughing at him!
And not that everyone laughing with him.
Fucker right? Sighs, I pity him too.
He made everyone carry his filthy bag.
So what if he's rich? Hahaha! Does he have anything?
No he doesn't. He don't even have anything!
Oh wait, he thinks he's perfect.
Purleaseeeeeeeee. If you're perfect, I'm god. Thanks.

Dear Diary, pity him okay.
He don't have any friends at all.
I feel sad for him.
And I think he doesn't realise his testes is gone too.
That would have explained all the ego. Gross.
That ego is going to kill him one day. (:

Love,
Hwee.

Importance.

2010-03-27T11:42:00.000-07:00

Now, I know how important are the people who love you.
They are worth more than any amount of cash.
They are irreplaceable, and will stand by you no matter what.

Thanks to my friends who stand by me.
I appreciated it so much. (:

Back to one.

2010-03-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

Yellow! I'm back, again.
I'm doing homework now. See I'm good girl.

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Fay, don't worry kay. I'm fine.
It's just very complicated. (L)

So going to rock your balls.

2010-03-26T08:15:00.001-07:00

Hong and I were talking just now.

This is our conversation. (:

yanhong ; says:
now i know love is so fragile

Hraz! \m/ says:
Yeah, love is extremely fragile.
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yanhong ; says:
one minute, its like woahhhhhhh
the next, its sucks to the core
and you break it without knowing cause you hold it too tight

Hraz! \m/ says:
yeah.
and when you break it, it breaks your heart.

I feel like eating away my troubles. Ice-cream and Nata please!

I hate loving people sometimes, it just breaks your heart.
I'm not trying to say that I hate everyone all the time.
It's just that making so much effort and people still doesn't see it.
Now, this doesn't make sense at all.

Hong, cheerup okay.
I know he means alot to you. Obviously.
However, I think he needs more time you know?
Yeah, all in all, I've got your back, you've got mine.
So, rock onzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz! \m/

Goodnight my love,

Effects.

2010-03-26T04:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I wished I was a kid again.
When everything was just a little more perfect.
I wished I was like Zoe. Screaming everything out.
When she's not happy or angry.
At least her parents would care.
People who love her would care, but in my lifetime.
Nothing would.

I wished I could help you.
However there's nothing I could do now.
It effects me now. I can't speak it out.
And I get why you say my mood would affect yours.
I didn't understand. I'm sorry.
Be strong, and if they belong with you, they would.

Stop the world now.

2010-03-25T08:11:00.001-07:00

I wished the world would come to a stop and doesn't move on.
I hate life right now, been so moody and everything.
I hate myself for being like this.
I don't get myself as I did before.
This isn't me. This isn't hwee. This isn't what I am.
Damn, where did I go?

Away.

Su. Yan. Hong.

2010-03-24T05:40:00.001-07:00

Su Yan Hong, tell me your dirty little secret. HAHA.

I took a fall, but no one's catching.

Fuck it.

2010-03-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

There's so many reasons why I hate staying at home.
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So yes, fuck it. Get off of me. It's fucking annoying. -.-

(:

2010-03-19T07:50:00.000-07:00

Picture perfect. (:

Love, me.

2010-03-19T07:46:00.001-07:00

It took me so long just to figure it out.

Gerald butler.

2010-03-19T07:36:00.003-07:00

Sorry for this random thing, but I think he's hot. :D

P.S. My boyf is hot too okay. :P

Fear of flying.

2010-03-19T00:08:00.001-07:00

Did I ever tell you that baby blues are freaking cute? HAHA.
Let me tell you now, It's freaking damn cute baybeh!

Live like you're dying.

2010-03-18T23:42:00.000-07:00

I'm telling myself to stay strong till it ends. For now.

Stand by me.

2010-03-18T01:29:00.000-07:00

H E L L O W P E O P L E. I A M B A C K.

I'm sorry about my last few posts.
I don't get myself either.
I'm getting more confusing by the minute. HAHA.
And, fay says I'm insane. So, I'm here to prove I'm not!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. :D

Okay, whatever hwee, whatever.

Alice.

2010-03-17T08:35:00.001-07:00

Take me away.
Homework is going my way.
Leave me alone.
Cause I belong within my zone.

Okay, what the fuck is wrong with me?

Crash and burn.

2010-03-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

Trying to balance up his life and mine.
Your ain't giving that chance.
What is wrong, what did he do.
I swear now I don't get you.
You guys changed like the wind.
And the wind never come back.
Having a bunch of clouds with you,
seems like it's never enough.
All you guys think is about your
own personal sun.
Selfish thinking takes away those clouds.
And one of the clouds give up trying.

:D

2010-03-13T07:59:00.000-08:00

Turning point.

Tracing.

2010-03-13T07:58:00.001-08:00

Perfectly, lonely.

Dream wisher.

2010-03-13T07:50:00.000-08:00

Wanna learn how to make your dreams come true?

1) Go to a very dark place like a forest or something.
2) Look up at the stars and look at only one star.
3) Wish for something while you are looking at that star.
4) If the star 'disappears', your dream will come true. (:

P.S. Don't point at them.
P.S.S. Don't wish for too much. (:

Poker face,

2010-03-11T20:41:00.001-08:00

Can't read my, can't read my, no you can't read my poker face~

Oh! Hellow people. I think I'm going gaga.
Apparently, my mens is seriously killing me.
So yes, I hate having mens, you know how painful it is?
Maybe if we have mens once a month, the guys should get kick in the balls.

I've got a little secret to tell you..

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Hehehe! Kawaii~ :)

Back to you.

2010-03-11T20:32:00.000-08:00

Relieve. I'm relieved.

Mdm Elysa helped me out just now.
Saying that I didn't make too much.
Just that I've got a lot of distractions around me.
Which I have to admit it was true.
And I have to buck up, frankly speaking. o.o

I think I only tend to blog when I'm feeling down.
So this blog lacks of entertainment.
However, some people like Hong will see only.
Haha! So it's okay. I'm happy enough. (:

Oh, I went to northpoint just now.
I got this one dollar tigger at Gift A Name!
It's so totally screwed up man. :D
It's so freaking cheap, you know.
And obviously, I love it aloooooot. (:

Adorable isn't she? :D

Life's good.

2010-03-11T02:07:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's parents teachers meeting.
It's gonna be my death day tomorrow.
With the grades I'm scoring, it screams you suck!
Ain't I unlucky enough?
And my mum found out something about him.
So yes, double greatness.
If Mdm Ilysa says things about him tomorrow, I'm gg already. ^^

Life's good? You sure? Chop off head*

Give you hell.

2010-03-09T05:19:00.001-08:00

Whackellow people.

I believe in karma, whatever goes around comes around.
You find trouble with me. Trouble will find you back.

It doesn't mean that you got fucking hugeee eyes means
you could stare at me all the time. fuck it.

Suckers, i'm so going to knock you down.

head on the ground.

2010-03-04T01:11:00.000-08:00

I need to stay focus.
Repeat after me. I need to stay focus.

I need to love, not hate.
Repeat after me. I need to love, not hate.

I need to be more mature.
Repeat after me. I need to be more mature.

Oh will I shut up already.

Told you so.

2010-03-04T01:00:00.000-08:00

I told myself, it's time.

My girl.

2010-03-04T00:53:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling more trapped in.

Brick by boring Brick.

2010-03-01T01:51:00.000-08:00

Wellow to all. (:

I'm here cause apparently, Hong and Illaisha says I blog too little.
So yes, I'm here again, again and again. Hehe!

Life's bore, life's become too boring.
I guess apparently it's due to the stress and everything.
No doubt, I bet everyone would love to have the o's over and done with.
Hmm, this next 7 months is gonna suck alot. -.-

Anyway, I'm going to do the biology thing now.
Hehehe! Have I told anyone how much I love bio? :D
Alright, I totally loooooooooooooooooove it!

You know sometimes, when you know this particular bunch is super AA,
it gets freaking annoying? And they even think that it's cool? Eww. -.-
It's gross and you think your bunch of friends are so cool huh?
Copymeow others, doing what they're doing.
Oh. So. Great. How about another round of applause? Z.
Stupid bunch of annoying pieces of crap/shit/dung.

So much for having a simple life. No. More. -.-

Ignorance.

2010-02-28T02:35:00.001-08:00

Chuck it. Chuck you, you and you. Chuck.

Need you now.

2010-02-26T08:54:00.000-08:00

I wanna take child psychology next time. (:

Only you could love me this way.

2010-02-26T08:52:00.001-08:00

Sorry baby, I love you.

Collide.

2010-02-26T08:18:00.000-08:00

Where is everyone. I'm feeling lonely.

Move along.

2010-02-26T04:55:00.000-08:00

Today is just another awesome day. Not.
I'm sorry for sounding so grumpy and everything.
But yes, I shall start my whining now.

Number One.
Today's match was okay, we lost.
Wanna bet, those sore losers would be looking down again.
Yes, move along~ The defender that was defending me is a total bimbo. -.-
She keep shouting ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch non stop.
Chuck her! She even got the guts to shout that when she was the one who hit my boobs.
As you know, I lost my temper today. I shouted back at the player.
I pushed her and her team saw it. Who eff-ing hell cares?!

Number Two.
Went back to school today. Found fatihah with the juniors.
And they disappointed me so much.
Instead of running two rounds outside the school, they run one.
It's fucking hell disaappointing to find that out.
I mean, you guys have been pampered by us. -.-
We don't scold you, and you guys still lose the first-aid kit?!
Hello! The first-aid is freaking huge and your still lost it. Baik luh. -.-
Seriously, I got nothing else to say.
That's why people normally say. Leopard would never change its spots.

Number Three.
Back to studying. Again. Chuck. Damn. _______.
I don't want northzone to end this quickly.
I want to play on court, say AIwhoosh and everything.
I'm going to miss every single moment of this.
It's not the end yet. (:

The ugly truth behind your eyes.

Collide.

2010-02-25T02:47:00.000-08:00

Anyway, this post is specially for hong.
Haha! She says that she reads my blog 24/7. Wah~
Then she persuaded me to blog more.

Why only two posts! D: -Hong.

So funny isn't she? Hehehe, obviously, she's my hongggg! :D

Tomorrow is my last netball match.
Tomorrow is my last time I'm playing for northzone.
It's my last time getting out of class.
My last time playing with Ffwesh.
My last time saying AIwhoosh with my teammates.
My last time hugging people and encouraging people to do better.
My last time hurting myself for no good reasons.
My last time playing for AInetball.
My last time that it's making me love netball.

I'm upset. I'm lost. I don't want it to end.
It's my last match tomorrow, I'm going to rock balls. \m/

My studies are like crap now.
Failing about 3/4 of my tests. Nice.
I despise myself for this two stupid months.
They are the worst two months I had.
It's always the stress, no time for studies,
no time for friends, no time for him.
It's always that way, I wished that time would fly,
and weeeee~, let's partay! (:

For now, I can only hope that, luck would turn and come in my way.
For now, I could only hope that nothing change.
But. Chuck it. Fuck. Hell. Great.

To all my friends out there, especially to those I care.
Stay strong!

I never knew that the word love, means so much. (:

Don't love you no more.

2010-02-24T01:34:00.000-08:00

Today was just plain stupid! Haha.
However I enjoyed today so much.

As you all would know, there was stealing cases occurring in my class just now.
And around $200 plus and a psp was gone.
This pulled everyone's mood down. ( Baby are you down~ haha! )
Yeah, in the end, we found it.
So happyhappyhappy us~ (:

I did the most stupid thing on earth at R.P just now.
When I refill the water just now.
I wanted it to be cold, so I tested the water.
I didn't see the hot water sign.
So I used my hands to test the water.
BOOM! My hand is burnt now. -.-
I think the neurons in my body are working super slow today. (Y)

Sorry. I suck.

Dirty little secret.

2010-02-23T02:17:00.001-08:00

I wished I would stop trusting so easily.
I don't want this to be the way it is.
I hate it that I couldn't control it.
I hate that things become this way.

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Stop. Please.

Must have done something right.

2010-02-20T08:41:00.000-08:00

It's a orange, red, yellow, green, blue, indigo, violet day. (:

Orange cause it brightens my day up.
Red cause I experienced anger today.
Yellow cause I bought something new for myself today.
Green cause I didn't feel sick in the bus ride.
Blue cause I feel disappointed in myself.
Indigo cause I feel different.
Violet cause I feel like a little girl again.

I so feel like whining again. Haha!

S.O.S

2010-02-19T05:09:00.000-08:00

Help.

It ends tonight.

2010-02-18T05:57:00.000-08:00

Crying suddenly becomes a habit of mine.

This officially sucks.

Happy studying.

2010-02-16T05:16:00.000-08:00

Have to remember that chemistry stuffs.

Exothermic reactions are reactions in which heat energy is released.
Endothermic reactions are reactions in which heat energy is absorbed.

Exothermic reactions are negative, while endothermic reactions are positive.

The particles would gain heat energy, move faster,
allowing an increase in chances of successful collisions.

Activation energy is the minimum amount of energy the reactants must require
in order to have success collisions to produce products.

Bond energy is heat energy absorbed to break one mole of covalent bond
OR
Bond energy is heat energy released to make one mole of covalent bond.

Catalyst is required to increase the rate of reactions by
breaking the chemical bonds between reactant molecules.

The lower the activation energy, the higher the rate of reactions.

Sorry for this post. I need to remember all this stuffs. ^^

Tonight, you're here with me.

2010-02-14T07:42:00.001-08:00

Hello people!
I'm here cause Fay misses me so much that she wanted me to blog about her.
So yes, I'm giving her the honours okay! Haha!
Fay, if you see this. HAHA.

Anyway, I wanna watch Dear John man.
I'm so into Nicholas Sparks this days.
His book contains so much love, care, fear and everything
a normal human being should be feeling.

I read his book, the last song this few days.
The book made me cry, during CNY!
Can you even believe it?!
Anyway, I'm so going to watch Dear John.
Don't try to stop me man~ :D

This is the trailer for Dear John. (:

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Anyway, the reason why I am here is cause, I'm troubled.
I feel troubled and exhausted at the same time.
The o'levels are coming and time is seriously against me.
I don't know why, I end up venting anger on people I care for.
Especially him, regardless of how great he treated me.
I know I suck at being his girl, even though I say that a lot of times.
He didn't wanna listen it in! I feel gulity and somehow, not guilty?
Yeah great, I'm like the greatest asshole on earth right now.
I don't even know how to console him when he's feeling down.
I wished I could be with him, but I know it's so much impossible.

The reason why I wanted him to stay was caused,
I'm having cny here and I'm able to talk to you, like finally.
But you have to be somewhere else. And I thought you didn't want me.
So yes, I'm getting paranoid. Stupid me. -.-
Sighs, someone please slap me hard.

The trailer of The last song. (: - Made me cry know. :(

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Anyway, I wanna see a whale and dolphin within my lifetime.
Random I know, sorry about that. Hehehe!
I wanna do scuba diving and cliff diving.
I wanna watch snow falling and making snow man.
I wanna see Kris Allen in person. (Y)

Note to self: Be humble hwee.
P.S. Note to self: Or not later someone says you're more pampered than he is.

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Alright, the last thing I wanna blog about is.
I hope I get a new music player.
More convenience to everyone.
So yeah, purlease. (*)

I love you, please know that.

Love.

2010-02-02T04:38:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday Rinaaaaa. :D

Thanks for being there for me always.
And yes, I know that I'm such a irritating brat.
But you still cared for me so much.
So yes, thanks so much alright.
And must enjoy today okay. (:

Wahlau, you're 16! So old, hehehe! :D

Note to self: Keep your cool.

2010-02-02T04:20:00.000-08:00

Hello people, I'm back from so long.
Pardon me from that okay, been so busy with everything.

Anyway, all I wanted to blog about was,
the fact that some people just deserved being screwed.
Get what I mean? Oh yes, let me elaborate.

After knowing that we won the game yesterday,
I get most of you must be fucking shocked right?
HAHA. Let me tell you guys something.
To those backstab, wished us good luck and then,
turn their backs and fucking hell asked the class if we could win.

Seriously, get a life.

You are the role model to everyone.
I guess you just suck cock, don't you?
Why, jealous of the fact that,
we could fit in the size, while your bloody
fat ass couldn't? HAHA. Fuck you.

As to those, who felt that we would lose,
and who dared to even wished and turn their backs.
I just got one thing to say.

I hope you guys will get back what you fucking hell deserved.

To those who apologised, I appeciated the effort.
I guess that you make me feel better.
Than those bloody leeches who think they are oh-so-good.

So yes, I end off here.
All the netballers would know what I'm talking about.
So yes, no believers, shut your gap,
and keep it close. Get lost.

You want war, I will give you one.

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2010-01-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

Hey people, been stressed out lately.
So much to catch up on, and I got two tuitions on Saturday!
One at bedok, another in Yishun.
Mad am I? Yes I am. Haha.
I kinda like going tuition. ( Makes me smarter. lol.)

Anyway, life's been up and down.
Up cause, I'm happy with LLTT. (:
I'm happy cause I work hard this year.
I'm happy cause, apparently, five more days. (Hehehe.)
Down cause, Peh's different class from me.
I'm alone somehow.
Cause, apparently, someone is annoying me extremely much.
Sighs, forgive and forget hweeeeee. (:

Anyway, if you think you ain't attracting attention,
you fucking hell are. Seriously, get over it already! -.-
I guess you're just fucking hell jealous that they are happy together. -.-

Unable to keep it within anymore.

Gross out beyond control.

2010-01-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

Okay, one word to say it all.

Stress!

Dickheads. ;)

2010-01-15T04:16:00.000-08:00

I'm going to say something k.

I did not break up with Zulfadhli Bin Mohd Said.

Yes, apparently some dickheads don't understand.
Spreading stupid rumours like this.
Nice going asshole, I'm not going down that easily! ;)

Tired.

2010-01-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

Me likie this song, hehehe!
Anyway, I'm so tired this few days.
So much tests! :( Nevermind, jiayou!

Hit the books.

2010-01-09T10:30:00.001-08:00

Today's sunday.
I'm going to be a good little girl and mug hard.
I'm going to cut my hair, again! :D
I'm going to tuition at 7.30.
I'm going to meet bi before going home.

Well well well, that's my plan for tomorrow.
Boring boring boring tomorrow.
Anyway, I was outside for about 12 hours today.
From..

Yishun > Tampines > Temasek > Tampines > Dover > Ngee Ann > Expo > Home. (Y)

I went with Peiying, Jeremy, Shikai, Rafiq, Afiq, Firdauz and bi today.
Finally, we went together. Haha.
Anyway, it's fun going to poly.
Know why? Hehehe Cause can take a lot of cute stuffs!
And, frankly, Temasek people are super friendly.
And very very enthusiastic about their own courses.
The best part was..

They give helium balloons! Me likie :D

I took red and yellow one today. Hehehe.
Headed to Ngee Ann, which is on the west.
So exactly, we travel from the East to the West.
Power right? When we reached NA, it's extremely crowded.
We saw a lot of familiar faces today. (:

Then, there's free popcorn and candyfloss!
Me likie again! :D Heheheh.
However, other than the lady at the nurse course,
the rest were the teachers and everything.
That wasn't cool, at all.
I wished somehow, it was less, speechy? HAHA.

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Bi help me let go my helium balloons at NAP.

I mean, so funny lah! Haha.
Letting out the I love TP at NAP.
Power right? Yeah, only hwee can do that! :D

Then, I headed back to the East again.
For some concert my mum wannt watch.
It's freakishly boring I tell you!
It sucks, but my mum enjoys it? God.
I envy my mum for that man. (:
Anyway, I miss talking to her, somehow.

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And, I know she knows that I'm still together with bi.

I know this cause, she's my mum.
I'm her daughter.
She knows me so well that my little actions mean so much.
That's freaky right? But, I still love my mum. (:

I was thinking about a lot of things just now.
Like how this year will fly and everything.
Soon, I will be sitting for o's and we will part to different schools.
I told him that I got a strong feeling we will part.
And TOUCH WOOD., we might you know.. yeah.
I hope that doesn't happen. Pray hard + Faith please. (:

Time stand still, I'm not a walking disaster.

A week of dying.

2010-01-08T04:35:00.000-08:00

The starting of school.
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Horrible.

It's only the first week and I'm damn exhausted.
Sighs, I've got tests coming and homework piling in up.
I think I will seriously die someday. (Y)

Anyway! I just destroyed my pimple today.
It's gross before control!
There's so much blood and some white colour-ed stuffs.
Muahahaha! Okay, enough of this. ;)

Classes went as usual, nothing much seems to change.
Alright, I will try defining that one day.
I bet a lot of people know what I'm talking about yes?
Don't worry, I will feed you with info soon.
Time still ain't right yet. (:

You're the one I've decided.

Lady gaga fever.

2010-01-02T03:42:00.000-08:00

I know I'm mad k. Don't need to emphasize.
But, she's seriously my most favourite singer man~ ;)

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Guangliang, I know what you're talking about.
Actually when you say her live performances rock! \m/

School!

2010-01-02T00:17:00.000-08:00

I can't wait for freaking school! :D

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Don't say I'm insane, I'm freaking bored at home! D:

New leaf.

2010-01-01T05:11:00.000-08:00

I'm going to be a new person next year.
I'm going to be a nobody and mug like a dog!
I'm going to be a stupid idiotic nerd and people will laugh.

Alright! What's wrong with me anyway -.-
Nevermind, just ignore the emoish/lovedrunk me. (:
Tell you guys something k!

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I finally went out my parents today!

Sorry for the this, but I enjoyed it, somehow.
Through my mum didn't want to buy the silver headphones for me.
I'm going to throw eggs/rubbish on her, lol! ;)
Tell yourself hwee, don't be so .. you know :D

Okokay! Back to earth, back to earth!
I can't freaking believe that school is starting in another two days time!
It's been two longlonglong~ months of holidays.
And now, it's back to the books. Great.

But, it's alright, I enjoy school somehow.
I can't wait to hit the books again.
I can't wait for northzone, through no coach. -.-
I can't wait to eat canteen food. (Y)
I can't wait to see all my loves, babes and friends.
I can't wait to play frisbee! :D :D :D
I can't wait to play badminton.
I can't wait to go for prom (!!!) Hehehe.

Anyway, I'm so going to hug this people when I go back school ;)

Jialin, Rina, Xueting, Peiying, Fay, Felicia, Wahyu, Shuyi, Ruiwen,
Mayank, Peisin, Illaisha, Geneva and Idk who else? Haha!

Free hugs + Two more freaking days!

2010.

2009-12-31T07:22:00.000-08:00

It's coming in another 30 minutes time.
And it really sucks.
I'm going to miss everything that happened this year.

-Going to miss those fun and laughter.
-Going to miss those love together.
-Going to miss those carefree life.
-Going to miss hanging out in the toilet when I'm not happy.

However, there are times I wished it never happened.

-I wished that I spent more time with LLTT.
-I wished that I spent more time focusing on things important.
-I wished I didn't have to vent/scream my anger on people.
-I wished that I paid attention in class.
-I wished that I could taken back what I said.

So, did I enjoy this year? Frankly speaking, no.
Somehow, summing everything and all.

Looking forward to 2010.
It's the last year of my secondary school life.
It's going to rock the hell out of my life. (:
Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Jasey ray.

102 thing boys are must know. ^^

2009-12-30T05:10:00.001-08:00

102 Things Guys need to know about Girls:

1. Do not cheat on a girl. We girls talk, we WILL know, and we WILL find out, and we WILL dump you!

2. Be aware of all your girlfriends’ guy friends, brothers, fathers, or anything. They are protective. Every single male friend we have will kick your ass if you end up hurting her.

3. Never ever miss an opportunity to tell her that she’s beautiful. We girls love that.

4. If she slapped you hard, you probably deserved it.

5. Do not be afraid of holding her. If she’s going out with you in the first place, it’s obvious that she likes you and wants to be in your arms.

6. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend -- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts or hoodie’s, and a really pretty piece of jewelry.

7. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely. We think that’s really cute and sweet.

8. If a guy is bothering your girlfriend, it is your right to beat the sh!t out of him.

9. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer. It’ll make her feel secure that you love her more than the other girl.

10. Never ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

11. Go along with her to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went with her.

12. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend. Or else.

13. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle. Let her win once in a while.

14. Memorize your girlfriend’s birthday. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life. Not gonna lie.

15. Don't drench yourself in the cologne, but smell good.

16. You don’t have to spend a million dollars on the Birthday/Christmas/Valentine gift. It doesn't have to be expensive, or cost anything but it has to be meaningful.

17. Don’t ever lie to us; we always find out.

18. Don’t say you understand when you don’t. That’s bad.

19. Remember: Girls are pretty, but yours is the Prettiest!

20. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; but doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

21. Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.

22. No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe. Don’t bother trying to convince us otherwise, that is a bad idea

23. It’s good to be sensitive, to a point.

24. If you did something wrong, apologize. Even if you didn’t, do it anyway.

25. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)

26. We are self-conscious by nature; we can’t help it. Let it be.

27. We don’t shave our legs every day so just get over it.

28. Shave your face, no matter how cool you think your goatee or beard or mustache looks, we probably hate it. We like you clean shaven.

29. Show off a little, we think it’s cute.

30. You are our boyfriend, our man, our protector, whether you know it or not, you are; act like it.

31. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).

32. We love it when you hug us from behind and whisper in our ear.

33. "Fine" is NEVER an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.

34. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you. Don’t obsess over that.

35. I expect you to call me. If you don’t, you go down.

36. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be. Don’t you dare take advantage of that.

37. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.

38. You look hot in hooded clothing items. Always.

39. You should never tell a girl what to do. Ever.

40. Any decent man will ask a girl out to her face. I mean; if you aren’t man enough to ask us out to our face, who says you're gonna be man enough to our boyfriend at all.

41. Girls are very impressed when you ask them for advice. Unless its about another girl.

42. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.

43. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.

44. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.

45. Girls need to hear how you feel about them. Often. Tell her now.

46. A girl wants to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this and tell her.

47. If she’s not feeling loved, she will start looking....

48. We like it when you tell us what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself. It’s cute.

49. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...

50. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.

51. We can fall in love with you without really knowing you, if you are an @ss, we will find out, and we will get over it. Fast. Don't ruin it.

52. You like her, make a move. Don’t just sit there, you will fail, and you won’t get her.

53. Baseball players are hot. The sport makes you skinny and your arm muscles… well, it’s hot. We’ll go to all your games even if we hate baseball.

54. When you compliment us, we aren't sure how to accept the compliment without leading you on or reject the compliment without hurting you. So just bear with us here.

55. WE HATE BEING LED ON! If you think it's bad being led on by a girl, try being led on by a guy.

56. We like it when guys are willing to have an actual relationship, not just a one-night stand. Most girls don't like pimps or players, just guys who like ONE girl only.

57. But don't be obssessive. Major turn-off.

58. Call sometimes, just to say hi, not for a certain reason. When we see your number on caller ID, our heart always skips a beat. Try calling just to say good night, or good morning, its soo adorable!

59. BE HONEST!

60. Don't ONLY tell us what we want to hear. We HATE that.

61. At sleepovers, if you wonder what we talk about, quit worrying. It really is only you.

62. If you catch us staring, it is most likely because we're spacing out, not because we really stare at you. Unless we smile when you notice. Then you either look really hot, or we like you.

63. We like it when you hold us when we're crying. It's good to feel loved and safe.

64. Don't go to our friends to talk about us. Come straight to us.

65. Don't tell us you love us unless you are positive you mean it. If we don't say it back, it's just that we really want to mean it when we say it. Don't say it right away, then it shows lack of commitment.

66. We like our hands to be held and our waists to be touched.

67. We like you to kiss our hand and cheeks and forehead (esp. forehead!!), not just shove your tongue down our throats. We do like to breathe.

68. We like it when you're tender, but don't lose your masculinity.

69. Do chivalrous things when we least expect it (ex. holding doors for us).

70. As surprising as it may be, while guys might actually look at personality, the first thing girls look at tends to be looks. We're not going to see you and think, 'I wonder what his personality is like!' Terrible, but true.

71. If we love you, and youre hurt on the basketball court, rolling on the floor in pain; we’re hurting more just watching you.

72. We LOVE it when you get nervous around us. It's adorable! Don't think you have to be Mr. Cool Guy all the time.

73. Don't play hard to get. We’ll get bored and move on.

74. If you don't call us, then we will spend hours thinking about why you never called, and we will waste a lot of time thinking about it, eventually coming to the conclusion that we don't like you anymore.

75. We lost interest quickly if you lead us on but never take action.

76. We might seem to flirt a lot, but a girl always thinks about the one guy she really likes right before she falls asleep.

77. When a girl likes a guy, she subconsciously gives him a song that makes her think of him every time she hears it.

78. If guys do the same as girls do in #77, tell her what song reminds you of her.

79. Randomly compliment girls in conversations. If you're talking about sports, be like "Oh, by the way, that shirt really made your eyes look green today." It totally throws us off, and we love it.

80. Ask us about how we're doing once in a while, and at least pretend to be interested.

81. If we're not talking to you, we secretly want you to talk to us first.

82. Play with our hair without being like a gay hairstylist.

83. We get really happy when you show any sign of interest. Don't just do it and then never do it again. Bad bad bad…

84. Keep up the conversation on IM and phones and in person! Don't be awkward. That’s bad.

85. We will always feel bad if we don't like you back. Not all girls are b!tches, no matter what you may think. We hate to reject you.

86. ok, so some girls are b!tches and they like rejecting boys, but the people who wrote this group are not. better?

87. If we say "Let's just be friends", we really mean it. Don't keep trying to pursue us, and don't say ok and then ignore us. That's just mean and horrible.

88. It's adorable when a best guy friend who a girl has thought about liking confesses he likes her.

89. If you’re single, find the one girl who’s always there on the sidelines at your football game, or at each of your concerts, all your baseball games. She loves you. Her excuse may be that she’s there for her brother, but she’s really there for you.

90. After you find that girl, smile at her once in a while, it’ll mean the world to her.

91. Get to know her, you’ll make her year first of all, and maybe, just maybe, you’ll end up liking her.

92. Not all blondes are b!tches. Some are cool.

93. Not all blondes are sluts. Some have morals.

94. In your mind, give every girl a chance. Each one deserves at least one.

95. Girls fantasize too, its just not always about sex.

96. We girls give you guys code names so that you don’t know that we’re talking about you. :]

97. If you’re jealous, it may suck for you, but we think it’s attractive if you really care that much.

98. If a girl blushes when you talk to her, she either likes you or she's embarrassed by what you're saying.

99. Girls don’t really write your name on a piece of paper a million times if they like you, that’s a myth…… sometimes

100. If a girl really likes you, just seeing you will make her day.

101. Even if you aren’t all that cute, and we like you, we think you’re hot. Don’t take advantage of that, take pride in that.

102. Every time you smile at us, it may mean only a little to you, but it means the world to us. Don't take the little things for granted.

Sorry for the massive copying over from facebook kind of thing.
But I swear, this is freakishly cool.
I mean, come on, you have to admit all of this are true right!
Hehehe, I was talking to bi about it.
Then he said," I did all of it what. Except number 32".
Hahaha! ;) Then for 77 and 78, we both agreed on it.
And for 102, it's plain sweetness. ;)
The ones in red are those I felt were important.

When the stars go blue.

You.

2009-12-30T04:48:00.000-08:00

Love is everything you could ever imagine.

Hellow!

2009-12-30T04:33:00.000-08:00

Why! I'm back. Again. Haha.
I guessed that maybe I should open it after all.
But apparently, my brain got choked up. -.-

Anyway, I'm so grounded until school starts!
It sucks man, I have to countdown 2010 at home.
Great, I'm so looking forward to it.

Speaking of 2010, I want stay in 2009! lol.
I mean, it is this year which I had my fun and everything.
Some more, next year o'level is coming.
I'm feeling the goosebumps and everything!

School's starting in another few more days.
I'm not prepared to go back at all!
I mean, frankly speaking, everyone is still in the holiday mood.
No one wanna go back. Alright. Maybe me? HAHA.
I can't wait to see everybody man.
Looking forward to that.

And! Fong is fucking hell gone.
Totally yaye-ness for me right not?
Goodbye to Mr bias! Goodbye! Goodbye!
Sorry for my over-enthusiasm, I seriously hate him. (:

American idol is coming again!
Looking forward looking forward man.
I mean, maybe there would another Kris Allen look-alike?
Wow, that would be totally (Y)!
See, over-enthusiastic. -.- Calm yourself down.

Oh yeah, and we just lost our coach.
I'm both happy and upset about this.
Happy cause,
- We don't have to tahan her crap.
- We don't have to run suicides.
- We will all smile when there's training.

Upset cause,
- Northzone is freaking next month!!
- The school is fucking hell giving up on us.
- No one cares about the AI netballers anymore.
- We have to pay everything ourselves.
- Feeling abandoned.

When Shuyi told me this, I'm shocked.
I didn't expect it to happen this early.
Now, great, no more coach.
I'm feeling so abandoned now.

A few more days to school!
I haven't pack my bag yet.
I haven't wash my bag and my pencil case.
I haven't get a file or anything.
I haven't freaking hell finish my homework.
I haven't pack my room, it looks like a rubbish bin.
I haven't do this and that, god!

Dang, I don't know what to blog about.
Till then, goodbye peeps. ;)

I miss you. I miss you.